..So hold me, Until it sleeps

Where do I take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side

So tear me open and pour me out
There's things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me
So hold me
until it sleeps

Just like the curse, just like the stray
You feed it once and now it stays
Now it stays

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I'm clean

It grips you so hold me
It stains you so hold me
It hates you so hold me
It holds you so hold me

Until it sleeps

So tell me why you've chosen me
Don't want your grip
Don't want your greed
Don't want it

I'll tear me open make you gone
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me
So hold me, until it sleeps

It grips you so hold me
It stains you so hold me
It hates you so hold me
It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps

I Don't want it want it want it want it want it No

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me 'til I'm clean
I'll tear thee open make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shapes me
So hold me

until it sleeps


Photo by Driftanas

When you don't see me...

it's not a matter of going to grow
it's not a matter of time or how I feel
I'm throwing off the shadow of a better man now
what you see is what you never had
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

oh, it's kind of different when you're there
you can lease the peace of mind
you bought a mask, I put it on
you never thought to ask me
if I wear it when you're gone
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

you never learned
you bought me
everything and less
I turned
you couldn't let me move
I guess, I don't deny, it don't disprove
what you see is what you lost
if I were you I wouldn't try
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

The Sisters of Mercy

Lost

[ArtSmith] Something missing.. hurts.., originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

She says she feels just a bit lost, that we just need to manage with it together, and cracks up a smile, this smile that melts me and that would make me do anything for her..

I just can feel that something is not right, that something is lurking there and I can't just go and kill it.. Maybe is just paranoia, maybe is just that I'm a stupid sick that can't enjoy what he has in front of him, but I have the fear that I really pressed some buttons that I shouldn't and that is going to take ages to get it back to the heaven I was living in...

En español ahora..

Dice que se siente un poco perdida, que sólo necesitamos manejarlo juntos, y dibuja una sonrisa, esa sonrisa que me derrite y que me haría hacer cualquier cosa por ella...

Yo sólo puedo sentir que algo no está bien, que algo está acechando y que no puedo simplemente ir y matarlo. Puede que sólo sea paranoia, puede que sólo sea un enfermo estúpido que no puede disfrutar de lo que tiene delante, pero me temo que presioné algunos botónes que no debía y que va a llevar años volver a llevarlo al cielo en el que vivía..

Daydreaming

[Polish Days] Daydreaming, originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

Happiness for me is just a plane away.. Happiness for me is with me everyday too :)

I'm a really lucky guy, I just think I'm not able to tell enough how happy she makes me feel