..So hold me, Until it sleeps

Where do I take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side

So tear me open and pour me out
There's things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me
So hold me
until it sleeps

Just like the curse, just like the stray
You feed it once and now it stays
Now it stays

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I'm clean

It grips you so hold me
It stains you so hold me
It hates you so hold me
It holds you so hold me

Until it sleeps

So tell me why you've chosen me
Don't want your grip
Don't want your greed
Don't want it

I'll tear me open make you gone
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me
So hold me, until it sleeps

It grips you so hold me
It stains you so hold me
It hates you so hold me
It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps

I Don't want it want it want it want it want it No

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me 'til I'm clean
I'll tear thee open make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shapes me
So hold me

until it sleeps


Photo by Driftanas

When you don't see me...

it's not a matter of going to grow
it's not a matter of time or how I feel
I'm throwing off the shadow of a better man now
what you see is what you never had
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

oh, it's kind of different when you're there
you can lease the peace of mind
you bought a mask, I put it on
you never thought to ask me
if I wear it when you're gone
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

you never learned
you bought me
everything and less
I turned
you couldn't let me move
I guess, I don't deny, it don't disprove
what you see is what you lost
if I were you I wouldn't try
get real
get another
- I don't exist when you don't see me
- I don't exist when you're not here
- what the eye don't see won't break the heart
- you can make believe when we're apart
- but when you leave I disappear
- when you don't see me

The Sisters of Mercy

Lost

[ArtSmith] Something missing.. hurts.., originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

She says she feels just a bit lost, that we just need to manage with it together, and cracks up a smile, this smile that melts me and that would make me do anything for her..

I just can feel that something is not right, that something is lurking there and I can't just go and kill it.. Maybe is just paranoia, maybe is just that I'm a stupid sick that can't enjoy what he has in front of him, but I have the fear that I really pressed some buttons that I shouldn't and that is going to take ages to get it back to the heaven I was living in...

En español ahora..

Dice que se siente un poco perdida, que sólo necesitamos manejarlo juntos, y dibuja una sonrisa, esa sonrisa que me derrite y que me haría hacer cualquier cosa por ella...

Yo sólo puedo sentir que algo no está bien, que algo está acechando y que no puedo simplemente ir y matarlo. Puede que sólo sea paranoia, puede que sólo sea un enfermo estúpido que no puede disfrutar de lo que tiene delante, pero me temo que presioné algunos botónes que no debía y que va a llevar años volver a llevarlo al cielo en el que vivía..

Daydreaming

[Polish Days] Daydreaming, originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

Happiness for me is just a plane away.. Happiness for me is with me everyday too :)

I'm a really lucky guy, I just think I'm not able to tell enough how happy she makes me feel

Lost somewhere

[Madrid] Lost in The City, originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

The city lights are calling slowly to me, appealing me to get there, among them, among the crowded square.. Disappear from the sight of everyone in the middle of everybody. No one see you when you feel really invisible...

Envy

[Stolen] Young Love, originally uploaded by Quikenobi Daikitora.

This young couple can look at each other's eyes, can hold each others hand.. can share an ice cream in the town center..

I'm envious,

A kitten's growl would not come near the plights of your spoken voice.

This is awesome.. completely


Thanks to Pax for this great webpage :D

Beer, beer, beer, tiddly beer..

Beer, beer, beer, tiddly beer.., originally uploaded by daikitora.

A long time ago, way back in history,
when all there was to drink was nothin but cups of tea.
Along came a man by the name of Charlie Mops,
and he invented a wonderful drink and he made it out of hops.

He must have been an admiral a sultan or a king,
and to his praises we shall always sing.
Look what he has done for us he's filled us up with cheer!
Lord bless Charlie Mops, the man who invented beer beer beer
tiddly beer beer beer.

The Curtis bar, the James' Pub, the Hole in the Wall as well
one thing you can be sure of, its Charlie's beer they sell
so all ye lads a lasses at eleven O'clock ye stop
for five short seconds, remember Charlie Mops

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He must have been an admiral a sultan or a king,
and to his praises we shall always sing.
Look what he has done for us he's filled us up with cheer!
Lord bless Charlie Mops, the man who invented beer beer beer
tiddly beer beer beer.

A barrel of malt, a bushel of hops, you stir it around with a stick,
the kind of lubrication to make your engine tick.
40 pints of wallop a day will keep away the quacks.
Its only eight pence hapenny and one and six in tax,

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5.. Yay!!

He must have been an admiral a sultan or a king,
and to his praises we shall always sing.
Look what he has done for us he's filled us up with cheer!
Lord bless Charlie Mops, the man who invented beer beer beer
tiddly beer beer beer.

The Lord bless Charlie Mops!

There is a light

Hotel lights, originally uploaded by daikitora.

There's a light at the end of the tunnel, but it is not a bright white light as one would have expected after watching all these American films where heaven is a bright white place and hell is a raging flames place, full of rocks and melting lava..

This light, waiting, is fiery, is warm, is rabid, is pure rage and raw power.. and is waiting for me to wield it, to cover me and make me of its own, to give me the strength again, to make me feel again that I can make the stones float around me, and that I know how to do it..

This light is waiting for me, and I know, over all sad and crappy thoughts, that is going to get me. And then will be heaven for me, and hell for the ones opposing me...

God bless this mess..

God bless this mess.., originally uploaded by daikitora.

You can see how my life is right now.. light, darkness, chaos, a telly and a couch that traps me every time I put my butt on it..

Somehow, my mind is in a similar status..

Determination

Leo in B&W.. partially, originally uploaded by daikitora.

My first post, just to show my intention, my determination to give words to the images I take.

Radio silence now.. contact again soon